BPOV
I ached.
My feet were killing me, my body ached and my clit was throbbing.
That didn’t stop me from getting out of bed though, leaving Edward
sound asleep.
After last night, I was seeing this new life and job in a completely
different light.
Don’t get me wrong, I was still shitting myself about appearing on
camera with God knows how many people watching, but meeting with the other
professionals last night and enjoying our time in the hot tub, I found myself
actually looking forward to it.
I was so turned on watching Rose and Alice last night, and seeing the
men’s bodies react to them, it was unbelievable. And then, to be the center of
attention to the guys, yeah, there were no words for that experience. I couldn’t wait to experience it again, but
first, I would make sure that Alice and Rose got their turns to be in the
center.
I think I must have fallen asleep with the biggest grin known to man on
my face.
I knew we had interviews and a small photo shoot to do today, so I
wasn’t sure what I should wear or not, so after I finished with my shower, I
grabbed a pair of sweats and a baggy tee of Edward’s.
Noting that Edward was still in a heap on my bed, I just left him
there, grabbing the sleep that he needed and made my way downstairs for breakfast.
I felt as though I drifted into the kitchen as I smelled the delicious
food that someone was cooking and when I got to the doorway, I smiled as I saw
Esme flittering about the room.
“Morning, Esme,” I said happily as I grabbed an apron off of the side
and tied it around my waist, “what can I help with?” I asked as I watched her
beat the hell out of what looked like pancake batter.
“Good morning, sweetie. Did you
have fun last night? At the club, I
mean, I know how much fun you had when you got back.” She winked and I felt my
face heat up with embarrassment. “Oh
come now, there’s nothing to be ashamed of,” she laughed, “But how about you
make a start on the bacon, because Lord knows I have to stock pile the stuff
with those boys around,” she smiled as she eyed a large pack of bacon on the
side.
I got to work frying the bacon and keeping it warm in the oven and then
when that was done, I started chopping up some fruit for the fruit salad that
Esme had planned.
“I’m really glad that you and Alice have decided to stay around,
Bella,” Esme said suddenly and I felt the knife slip in my hand, luckily not
cutting myself in the process.
Talking sex with Esme was weird, going into my past... downright
uncomfortable.
“Well, I’m sure Alice has filled you in on our life back home, so we
didn’t have much of an option to be honest.” I cringed as I thought about how
that sounded.
“Don’t fret, Bella. I know all too well how a situation in life can
make you do things against your wishes,” she replied somewhat sadly as she
finished off cooking a pile of pancakes and filled a large serving plate with
them.
“I’m not doing this against my wishes, Esme, but I do wish that things
were a little different,” I said honestly.
Of course in an ideal world I would have gone to college, met Edward
not in the porn business and we would have a white picket fence around our
family home with two point four children, but this wasn’t an ideal world and I
had to accept that.
“Even so Bella, it must have been quite a shock to find out about the
job in the way that you did,” Esme said as she put the food down to face me. “I
was the same you know, when I found out about Carlisle. I fell head over heels
in love with him and I have to admit, I had to chase him for a little while.
Now I know that he ran from me because of his job and he was trying to protect
me from it, thinking I was virginal, which I certainly wasn’t,” she let out a
wistful sigh, “I found out on our first date and everything had been just
beyond perfect, then of course he just blurted out his job and I was left
stunned. I did the only thing I could think of, I slapped him as hard as I
could. I didn’t speak to him for weeks afterward and I made him work for it. I
knew that I had no grounds to, but my heart was heavily invested in him and
what he did as a job hurt me,” she sighed dramatically before continuing.
“In the end, I realized that his job wasn’t worth losing him over and I
finally got him to crumble and let me watch.”
“Watch?” I asked, my mind going back to my earlier thoughts of asking
Edward about ‘studying’ some porn. Maybe it wouldn’t be such an odd request
after all.
“I know, it sounds so wrong, but I needed to know if it was purely just
sex, or if he had a connection to the girl he was partnered with. Once I saw
that it wasn’t anything, that it really was just that, sex... it was easier to
wrap my head around. Okay, so it was hard for me to see him being so close and
intimate with another woman, but when it came to us taking that step, I could
see the difference and feel it too. Katiana, his old partner, became a very
good friend of mine over the years and when the time came for him to retire
from in front of the cameras, Katiana was there to help push the business
further as he went behind the cameras,” Esme smiled widely, no doubt at fond
memories.
“I met Katiana last night, actually. She seems really nice.” I grinned
as I picked the knife back up and carried on with the job.
“She is, and to be honest, I never thought that we would be so close,
but she’s like an aunt to Edward and like a mother hen to the boys in general.
Whenever they got into trouble, they would go to her and not me because she was
softer with them,” Esme laughed lightly as she started putting the food on the
large kitchen table.
I followed her over on the second run with a huge bowl of the fruit and
then went to make some coffee.
“I can’t wait for you to see the new house, Edward and Carlisle have
put so much into it,” Esme grinned widely as we waited for the coffee to be
done.
“I’m looking forward to seeing it because Edward is refusing to tell us
anything at the moment,” I laughed as I tried to hide the nerves that were
kicking in.
“You know what, Bella, before you know it, you won’t even think of the
cameras or microphones. You’ll just slip into a life there and it will be full
of fun and games,” she said as she smiled gently and rubbed my arm.
Before I could reply, I felt a warm pair of arms wrap around my waist
and I knew instantly that it was Edward. I found myself relaxing into his
embrace and it just felt natural.
“Morning,” I said softly as I let my head fall back onto his chest
comfortably.
“I would have said good morning in reply, but I woke up without you,”
he grumped as he kissed the side of my neck, making me break out in warm
shivers
I must have blushed a thousand shades of red as Esme walked past us and
towards the table.
“Don’t mind me,” she giggled as she went, which caused me to blush harder.
“I can’t believe you just did that in front of your mom,” I chastised
him lightly as I pulled away to make the coffee.
“Why? She’s seen me do a lot more than that,” he laughed, snapping his
groin against my ass and I felt the blood in my face drain rapidly.
Fuck, how awkward would that be?!
“Bella, it’s what I’ve grown up knowing and it’s always in front of the
cameras. It’s all professional and nothing else,” he said gently as he kissed
me again and started to fix his own cup of coffee. “Think of it like they are
the auto mechanics and we are the assorted cars that come through the
shop. They can appreciate our lines,
curves and inner workings,” he wiggled his eyebrows, “but it comes down to each
of us being nothing more than an expensive vehicle to be fine-tuned and
revered.”
“Huh...when you put it that way...”
“I feel like a rode a horse all night,” Rose grumbled, cutting me off
as she walked into the room and sidled right up close to me and rested her head
on my shoulder.
Strange.
Normally she was a little more distant towards me, unless I was making
out with her, of course.
I giggled slightly as I saw Emmett looking as proud as punch in the
doorway.
I patted Rose’s head as I pulled away to finally get my coffee and sit
down at the table.
“You know, Rose, you could always say no.” I winked at her and was
pleased to see that Emmett wasn’t looking so proud anymore.
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